i'm feeling soooo moody for no particular reason... maybe i am irritated, or pissed, or unhappy, or dissapointed, or whatever... but somehow, i can't really make up what it is? i'm kinda weird don't u think? hmmm...i think so too....
Didn't feel like going home either... cause was just... in a didn't-want-to-go-home mood... so walked up to my gate.. then decided to turn towards the longkang...there...where it was breezy and dark....somehow, my mother saw me..LOL..so was called back ): oh.. well.. whatever... i'm just sick of home... i'm just tired of being the goodie-2-shoes girl at home...
Can't i just give no 2-hoots about anything?
Its not that i've never tried... but its damn fake! I'm tired already!!! can't u hear me? can't u see? i'm exhausted!!! how long more must i live this way?? an obligation has turned into a chore... i'm just a bad girl... a bad daughter... i have a bad life... i live badly... i'm badbadbad... u know... i was never good was i?
I can never see the good in you, and i guess u never will see the good in me.... sometimes, i wished there was an expiry date...
but you know, sometimes, is it even worth it? sometimes i wish i don't give a freaking shit and live my life blissfully ignorant and uncaring that actually sounds real good! don't u think?
sorry.. for such a vaguely angry post... actually.. i was moody for no particular reason before these thoughts, its just that the incident triggered.. the mass of discontent...
Until now i don't know what i was initially moody about... still figuring..
