I think i starting to realise i fucking screwed up my life...left, right, up, down, centre...and all around...in every possible way there could be...everything around me seems to be crubbling down...everything!!! what the hell is happening to me? me and pathetic life... i bet life's best friend is problems... if i ever meet someone with the name.."problem"..i am so gonna kill him!
Everything was..up..up..up....but now it is all...down...down...down...gone..gone..gone...poof!...a click of the finger...and all is vanished...
I guess whatever happens to my life now have only myself to blame... i just wished that i could just dig a hole and bury myself... lock myself away from the outside world...from all those miseries...i am gonna do a rebooting of my brain... reflections of my pathetic life...
Yes...thats right! Gone! i shall dissapear for a while...and let the whole picture of misery be painted all over me...and maybe i will understand my useless life better...and i shall not and will not engage in self pity...
y is life never fair??!!! ...i never wanted it to happen this way! it had never crossed my mind...
